One of THOSE days

I’m not really surprised it’s one of THOSE days. It’s a Monday. It’s frigid outside but without the benefit of snow. I had a great weekend and a greet week proceeding it. So I was due for a bad day.

It’s like frolicking through a field of flowers — if you didn’t step in a steamy pile of crap every once in a while, the flowers wouldn’t be quite so beautiful. I’ll call this my fertilizing day.

Sometimes, like today, the smallest set-back can be a huge obstacle. My motivation, confidence and desire for being a contributing member of society are taking the day off. I’m allowed one of these every once in awhile, right?

I’m not completely throwing in the towel. I’m just making the necessary adjustments. My to-do list has morphed from what it was when I woke up: finish Web site, do grant report, find recipes and create grocery list for in-law dinner, go through wedding pictures after work … To something much more manageable, although I’ve scaled back my expectations to accomplishing two of the items today: check e-mail, read the ones that are short, answer e-mails if it’s not too much work, fix the bunch in my sock that’s crowding my little toe …

I’d venture to guess that this discouragement is connected to a spiritual need. It’s easier right now to blame my emotions/spiritual state on things that are seen — rather than really seeking God and spending some time with Him. That should be at the top of my new to-do list. Ah, the clarity that comes from giving my problems a place on the computer screen. And crap — (I’m allowed to say that on my fertilizing day) I should have added blogging to that list, because then I’d be done for the day.